All faces are grey.
No one has fluorescence. The gloom of autumn is overshadowing my sun. It is not sadness. It is not confusion. It is disconnect. I am separate from the rest, but not different.
I do not wish for another, and I wish for less. Death attempts to impose its memory on me when my lids close. And it succeeds through the rest of my day.
The clouds are doing their job. They are raining on this parade.
Why does it seem all involved in my life are all ill-contented?
Why the sudden lapse in happiness?
Where has the gratitude for God gone?
It has gone with the sun.
Leave gloom, clouds, doom when shrouds loom. If the sun wont show its shy face, then tungsten it is.
9.25.2010
9.23.2010
As We Know It
You love familiarity. Even after a long day of adventure, where do you end up?
Home.
The reason why that word even exists is not because they needed another word for 'house,' whoever 'they' are. It emerged as a result of an action, an action described as 'returning.' Returning is different from arriving, it implies having been in a place and then going there again. So then how do we describe a place to which we continually return throughout our lives?
It is a concept, not a word, a jumble of letters describing a very human need, an instinct. We must belong. We cannot simply exist. That is never enough.
A lion has his pride, what do you have? A family, a career, a purpose? If you zoom out a little, you may begin to question why here? Why them? What now?
But what do we gain from recognizing something so bland? Why ask so many mundane questions?
Because without understanding our basic humanity, the requirement of man to have a Creator, to believe and worship Him, we can never understanding anything beyond that simple complexity.
Home is heaven. Every step we take needs to be towards returning. Towards pleasing the One who gave us this earthly home, and Who promised us a return to our original.
Home.
The reason why that word even exists is not because they needed another word for 'house,' whoever 'they' are. It emerged as a result of an action, an action described as 'returning.' Returning is different from arriving, it implies having been in a place and then going there again. So then how do we describe a place to which we continually return throughout our lives?
It is a concept, not a word, a jumble of letters describing a very human need, an instinct. We must belong. We cannot simply exist. That is never enough.
A lion has his pride, what do you have? A family, a career, a purpose? If you zoom out a little, you may begin to question why here? Why them? What now?
But what do we gain from recognizing something so bland? Why ask so many mundane questions?
Because without understanding our basic humanity, the requirement of man to have a Creator, to believe and worship Him, we can never understanding anything beyond that simple complexity.
Home is heaven. Every step we take needs to be towards returning. Towards pleasing the One who gave us this earthly home, and Who promised us a return to our original.
9.22.2010
Will
Things aren’t always as they seem. And the world is never how we want it to be. We may believe in a very strong truth. We may believe in something so much that we believe it is our destiny. But the only value in that is to channel that faith in to believing in God’s plan. He has a plan for us greater than any plan that any of us could come up with. He knows where our end will be, as well as our beginning and our journey to that end. How are we to arrive there if we only trust in our own vision and feelings? If you can even begin to believe in God, then you surely have the capacity to believe that He will guide your life through a path that will have the greatest possible ending.
Witness in Court
No struggle is unwritten, or unforseen. Whatever results from your endeavors is destined. No matter what steps you take or words you say, it was and is known. Those steps and words are required for your destiny to be fullfilled. So look at life this way: you are playing an already-scripted life, and that all you do was already designed.
So how do you explain the fact that your actions are driven by spontaneous or well thought-out choices, and that the results correlate directly with those actions? How can it be destiny if you could have chosen to let go of the one you loved, or fight for them? How is it written that you will end up, or not, with that person had you not chosen to push?
It is far easier to say that unforseen events are destiny, and that the results of our actions are separate from that, and that fate does not guide our decisions.
But that is precisely where we have miscalculated. Consider yourself an unforseen event. Every decision you make is an event in itself. You cannot control others, so their actions are 'destined.' Therefore your actions are perceived in the same way by the others. Simply because YOU are the cause of something happening does not exclude you from the greater picture. You are a part of destiny, and hence every thing you do or think or say or believe was documented, and will happen no matter what.
You are executing the grand plan with every little move you make, although no move is so little. You cannot understand the effect of one ripple on the ocean, because you cannot see the entirety of the ocean with your two eyes. So trust the One Who can see everything, at once, in space and in time.
All you have to worry about is that in whatever fashion you reach your destiny, that you arrive with dignity and having been the best slave to God that you could possibly have been. That is in your control.
You can control your character. You can be devoted to God in all that comes your way, whether it is an outside event or something resulting from your actions.
Make your journey speak for you, not against you
So how do you explain the fact that your actions are driven by spontaneous or well thought-out choices, and that the results correlate directly with those actions? How can it be destiny if you could have chosen to let go of the one you loved, or fight for them? How is it written that you will end up, or not, with that person had you not chosen to push?
It is far easier to say that unforseen events are destiny, and that the results of our actions are separate from that, and that fate does not guide our decisions.
But that is precisely where we have miscalculated. Consider yourself an unforseen event. Every decision you make is an event in itself. You cannot control others, so their actions are 'destined.' Therefore your actions are perceived in the same way by the others. Simply because YOU are the cause of something happening does not exclude you from the greater picture. You are a part of destiny, and hence every thing you do or think or say or believe was documented, and will happen no matter what.
You are executing the grand plan with every little move you make, although no move is so little. You cannot understand the effect of one ripple on the ocean, because you cannot see the entirety of the ocean with your two eyes. So trust the One Who can see everything, at once, in space and in time.
All you have to worry about is that in whatever fashion you reach your destiny, that you arrive with dignity and having been the best slave to God that you could possibly have been. That is in your control.
You can control your character. You can be devoted to God in all that comes your way, whether it is an outside event or something resulting from your actions.
Make your journey speak for you, not against you